Update.

It's been some time since I last got to update this blog. I've been having some stressful moments worrying about things that I suppose I shouldn't need to worry about.

Currently I'm living in Spartiv, bunking in Andrew Kok's room for the time being. Amy has entered Yougo hostel and is currently settling down and living with her old roommates. My coursemates and I will move to Kuzmin hostel on Monday when the people staying there evacuate our rooms. Of course I'll have to rush to the dean's office with Amy on Monday to obtain my permission slip to enter Kuzmin to stay.

Now I've not unpacked, for fear that moving later will be very much troublesome. I'm also not too happy because I'm disturbing Andrew's privacy. Staying at Spartiv means I'm staying as a guest in a friend's room. I guess I should be thankful that I have a bed and don't need to sleep on the floor unlike some of my other friends. Then again, I want very much to have a permanent hostel and great roommates. But it doesn't seem like that'll happen this year. I have to adapt, to keep thinking positive thoughts for whatever happens to me.

Went to church today. The message title was "The Journey-Part 1-Ready to Travel"
It seems like God spoke to me and told me to prepare to take a journey with Him, so be obedient to His words, and to have faith in His plans, and He will provide me with everything I'll need. It won't be easy, but as I was reminded today, He has never failed me in the past, so why would this time be any different? I need to trust Him, to place my life in His Hands and to allow Him to shape and mold me into the vessel that He can use for His Work here on this earth. And the molding and shaping process is what will hurt the most. I suppose I have to endure it so as to be able to increase and to be prepared for more things in the future.

Exodus 12:1-12 Talks about the preparation for the passover. How God gave instructions and how the israelites had to follow or perish. And how God provided them with all they needed by allowing them to "plunder" the Egyptions before leaving Egypt. Exodus 14:5-7,10-12 talks about needing to have faith in whatever God does.

The world promises destiny, but one is always left wanting more. God says today, "come on a journey with Me". I guess I have to prepare and go. Whatever comes will be from God. And I take comfort in these words that God hath said to me: "I will not allow you to go though something that you are unable to stand, I will only give you tests and trials that I know very well you are able to get though and by that, although it may very well hurt you to the bone, but if you pass the test, you will come out a better man."

Lord Almighty, my insignificant life is in Your Hands. Please protect and guide me along. Amen.

Thoughts..

Here I am, sitting in Dubai airport waiting for time to pass so that I can board the plane that would take me to Moscow. But I'm worried. I'm afraid. I'm stressed out. I'm frustrated. And there's nothing I can do.

I still need to worry about finding a place to stay when I reach Moscow. I might be able to enter Spartiv hostel to stay temporary with seniors. But if possible it would be so much better to immediately enter Kuzmin hostel as a guest so that I can settle down immediately after getting my Kuzmin hostel pass.

Someone lost the luggage that I stored in Moscow. The things that I kept inside, even I can't remember the exact things, but they were mine, and thus they were important. How could people be so careless. Such a big bag, such a heavy bag, and they could allow some unknown person to steal it from under their noses.

I'm worrying about the process of settling down. My classes start on the 1st of Sept, but I can only move into my assigned hostel on the 31st of Aug. And after moving in, I'll need to unpack, settle down, shop for groceries and neccessities, obtain library books, pay fees, pay insurance, confirm residence for a year, make visa..etc etc. And the list goes on. Problem is, I only have 1 day to try to complete all that..

But I suppose I'll have to learn to completely rely on God. He has taken care of me for so long and has never failed to give me the best. So why would He not do so now? It's just my human nature that will keep worrying and wondering and waiting. I still need to learn patience, to allow God's time and plans to come to pass.

Lord, my life is in Your Hands. Take it and care for it. Whatever happens, I will do my very best to accept and adept. But it definitely won't be easy. Lord, help me.

21st Birthday

22nd August, went back to Ipoh to celebrate me birthday with my family and immediate relatives.
Custom was whoever turned 21, he/she had to "belanja" everyone else a really good dinner. So..

Uncle picked East Ocean..

Really posh place..

This is supposed to be a mixed seafood crock pot. Whatever seafood you name, it's there..

Veggies. Never left out of any meal.

Steamed chicken. For those who don't eat seafood and pork.

Tofu with minced meat and leeks.

Char Siew. The "pork".. But it was good. =]

This was what my bowl of mixed seafood looked like..

My cake.

My happy grandparents. Their 5th grandchild just turned 21. =p

Family photo. My lil bro just hasn't learnt to be photogenic yet.. He'll learn to learn..

My "Kampow"

My grandparents' family is so growing. New additions coming in every year. I'm going to be an uncle soon.. =p

I'm 21 now. Have to throw my childhood behind me and take up my role as a young adult. Really going to be needing God's help in this.. Leaving my comfort zone and protectional umbrella of my parents. Long road ahead.. Sigh..